thOugHt

2006-10-08T00:20:00.000-07:00

clOsed.

retained

2006-10-02T09:54:00.000-07:00

overall: the papers were generally easy.

but..i dunno how to do.!! i need to get at least a c for all subject for this promo inorder to get juz a mere pass den i will not b retained. but i think it's hard now. like now, i shld b slping or studying instead here i was. ya, need to blame myself if i ever get retained (which is going to b a fact real soon).

anyway, it's hard to study at home. with 6 people and 5 cats living in a small little 3-room flat of mine. this can no longer b consider as warm n cosy.

anyway, think i found a nice place studying. tat is the coffeebean at wm. it's not tat noisy n not tat quiet. n most imptly not far frm my hse n so i can study till quite late den go home. prefect place for me even though is abit ex.

2more papers on wed. going my fav place again tml. woo...so shiok.hahaha. coz i finally see my future again.no longer unpredictable.

well..study 1 more yr oso no harm hor. but it's better to fight for smth den live for nothing. so at least i learn abit of something in the process.haix.

promo tml.

2006-09-23T18:21:00.000-07:00

i shldnt be blogging here. i shld be mugging right hard on my table. haiz. i'm sick. i have a terribly horrible headache since friday. thought this haedache is caused by lack of slp so went to slp once i reach home. hohoho, i slp from 5pm to the next day 8am. i had wasted half of my day. sian. well..i assumed that i will be feeling better but the headache just dun wear off. so, practically i wasted 1 n 1/2 days slacking around. how..?? tml is the start of promo. juz let my fate does the job ba.

sickly me. *cough*cough

2006-09-18T10:05:00.000-07:00

Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on educationEducation is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

The Real You
Here is the analysis:
You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don't have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys. You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you.
You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.
You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

What's your personality love style?
Here is the analysis:You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high

Bright and CheerfulYou are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.

try this: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

2006-09-07T02:10:00.000-07:00

Being in love is as if time has frozen and you want to remain forever in the moment.

2006-09-05T07:06:00.000-07:00

We all grow, it's just that some of us grow apart

teacher's day

2006-09-01T02:56:00.000-07:00

the celebration ended early in cckss bcoz of that stupid rain. all the teachers went home ar around 1030. lol. we reached at around 12plus den left only a few teachers. sian. alot of ex-ccksians went back but to find out this shocking news. in the end, we decided to went back to our very own class. it was so homely. later on, harris, our dear monitor suggested a big n small fish game. it's really a heart-breaking game. haha..the 1st victim was andrea, followed n by raj, haikal den me. the most interesting part n most yucks part is the punishment. haha..hee..not going to mention anything abt tat coz tat was really embarassing. =P

later on, went to kbox. hahaha. sing till 9plus. hehe..quite fun lo.=)

think we will get to c abt the whole of 4/9 will b on teachers' day le. looking forward to it. =)

smile?

2006-08-25T09:02:00.000-07:00

it make me wonder sometimes y do ppl laugh or smile when they dun even feel happy at all. it bothers me although i cant deny that i'm not one of such person.

mayb it's bcoz i juz too lazy to tell them my reason and the easier way to escape is to smile. but y do ppl judge one's mood through the facial expressions? no doubt it is the easier way, but there's still a high possiblity that it is not the real emotion the person is feeling.

life's short. dun b tied down by the unwanted needs.

anyway, went to the concert yest. pretty high, arent i? keep screaming like crazy. hohoho. it's quite surprise to me that our sch won the 2nd place even though the music is nice. keep thinking y did i choose such a far far sch. haiz. went to st andrew village earlier, whooo..alot of guys. haha..not used to it. their so called open hse very major sia. still got dunno wad dunno wad minister de. shiok rite? oya..i love their sch song. have spirit! up and on!

promo nearer. revision starting tml.jia you.

Meeting you was fate,

becoming your friend was a choice,

but falling in love with you:

I had no control over it.

2006-08-15T07:52:00.000-07:00

the earth nv stop revolving. life goes on. how i wish it can juz stop for a moment to allow me to catch my breath in this ever-fast paced society. i'm going out of breath!. another 40 days or so, will b promotional exams. how am i going to survive through that surreal when i am slacking all the time.??? sleeping is the only thing i can think of when i want to study. oh..that cosy warm bed is waiting for me rite now too.

i need more determination.

how do i look when i dun joke, laugh, and juz being monotone n uninterested in anything..? look horrible, uglier, or look fierce..? well..mayb all. but sometimes i really dun feel like talking esp in the morning so pls understand. i need time for myself too.

anyway, this time round of blood donation i feel that it is more painful than last time. mayb it is due to the nurse who poke wrongly or due to my running veins (quoted from the nurse). so they pull out the thick long needle den poke back. finally went in to the correct vein. my hand there is blue black now. ouch, it's still feel painful. ouch. ouch. ouch. haha..but i will not stop donating whenever i can. :) it's meaningful.

oya..haha..next time dun wan study wif tian cai le...coz the day b4 went to study wif him den in the end we end up taking talking..so nth is revised or done. haha..mayb he oso dun wan study me again le orelse we will end up chatting again. omg.

hmm..go to finish some of my hw le. hope i wont end up slping agian..haix.

where can i find my determination?

motivate me. pls.

2006-08-09T21:29:00.000-07:00

Taurus Woman - April 21st to May 21st
A slim moderately tall woman. Taurus woman is funny and a jolly person. Square facial bone structure, high cheek bone. Her round big eyes sparkle with wit and curiosity. You will not see many round faces Taurus women, and mainly she will have a strong jaw line. She is a constantly change person. If she up sets, she will not show it and will keep it to herself for a long time, and will remember them so well. If she gets really mad at you, you will suddenly become a totally and completely stranger to her. She is a patient person, but always need new excitement. She hates long talk meeting, long and endless conversation. She can be in love with you today, and one day she could act as if she has never loved you before. She has patient with what she wants to do and will never give up until she gets there. She will be very persistent in what she is doing till she has reasons for stopping her project, then she will quit.
Money for Taurus woman is not the most important factor in life. She thinks of money as an instrument for assuring of a good living. She has more satisfaction in achieving her goals more than satisfaction in fine cloths and luxuries. If you like a woman who always thinks of love and romance ,then you are dating the wrong girl. You can not tell her to stay at home, she likes to work and preferred not work at home. She loves animals and likes to surround by animals. Love is in her head, but Freedom is in her soul. She has her own idea about love and afraid to show her true feeling for fear of rejection. She is not the type to talk about love, but she sure has a strange way to show it. She is not good in showing when she is in love, but if she loves you she will be honest to you than any other women. She will be honest to her love one, but at the same time seems distant. You will have a good relationship with her, if you allow her freedom. Do not force her to be with you in a poker game which she hates, but let she goes out swinging with her friends if she wants to. She will be different than other girls, and she thinks different is one of her unique quality. She is a public figure but belongs to no one.
She will not stay with you, if she thinks you are not sincere. She likes you to have personality, but better not to compete with her. Loves her, but not too much for she afraid it will limiting her freedom. She always stand out of the crowd for something she dares to do. You could see her dress like a poor farmer dinning in the fancy restaurant, or dress like a nun in an a cocktail dress party. If you are a politician who are looking for a wife, she will make a good one because she is cleverly smart and she could get along socially with any type of crowds. She is not a jealous type because she has to know you thoroughly before accepting you in her life. She has more curiosity in life than wondering if right now you are flirting with someone else. If you keep a distant from her, or go away for a few days , she will miss you more. Even when she is dating you, she also able to fond of someone else, if you do not have something she is looking for. She will never disappoint you or hide behind your back to make you loose face, but she is the type who just going to tell you to your face that " We're better off breaking up". She always remember her first love.
Taurus woman holds the best record for divorce for she does not care about how people think of her, but every things should be done for "Happiness". She has lots of friends and sure of herself, so you will hardly see she delays any of her thoughts before her action. If she think of something, she will go ahead and does it. She has many men wanting her for her constant changes is the challenge. She can be cute and funny, but suddenly cool and tough. She has her own style of dressing up, so you could see her dress like an old mate today, and tomorrow she may dress like she comes from Mars. She will have that interesting hair, dress and a look unique from anyone else. She likes to learn about your dreams and your thought. She has fun teasing you and making jokes. If she did something wrong, she won't hide it from you, but do not ask when she is not in the mood to talk about it. She hates to owe people money and take promise seriously. If you promise to pay her back, you'd better paid up. If you want to make it with Taurus woman, then do not be jealous or possessive, do not be narrow minded, do not criticize about nonsense or small and insignificant matters. Try to likes her friends and let she has her privacy, then she can be very sweet to you.

some r quite true. but some how i wish is true but not..haha..wad slim n tall..arghhh..hahaha

http://web.singnet.com.sg/~trflch/taurus.html

ne jamais je pouvoir vous oublie parce que vous êtes l'un qui me fait vous manque de temps en temps

bdae of the country

2006-08-09T21:21:00.000-07:00

national day. i went to meet eve n yolky. haha, i was late as usual.=P we walk around the street den me n eve super hungry le. so we say wanna eat but tat milky yolky say she very full lo. haha..in the end bought some food frm old chang kee. den after a while tat yolky say she wanna eat le. omg. we were still quite full lo. haha.

anyway, went to eat at jack's place (again the 3 of us). it's was quite nice overall.

talk alot. gain alot of insights.haha.looking forward to end of the year so we could eat our night out again.=)

it's been a great night for me bside chatting n eating out wif my dear friends. i enjoy the moment. =)

national daY!!

2006-08-08T21:56:00.000-07:00

i was late for sch yest. haha. actually dun feel like going to sch le as lots of our classmates not going. but den again..i went..reach boon keng at around 9. i think. haha. but every1 is like somewhere around the neighbourhood so i end up looking at the map hoping to meet them. haha..den saw marvin n tyson lo. haha..so i stick with them like superglue coz i dun wan alone ma since they all shld have groups le. hehe..lucky they nv chase me off. haha

doing fun and fund raising is no gd. we went all the way to kallang coz wrong direction given. haha.anyway, we 3 r so wierd there..coz the stadium is filled wif all the army guys den 3 students popping out frm nowhere.

after that, me, raine n ann ngee wanna pon the concert lo. so walk out of sch happily..den saw teacher walking back to sch..ops..we kena caught red-handed. so we walk all the way back to sch again. we so unlucky la. others get out of sch so easily. den we..haha..

went to meet az at bugis to look for her bdae present. saw 1 pink checkered bag. quite nice. den went to suntec city. hohoho..saw a lot ppl there..i saw wing yan, gwen, zhong lin, n sheenA. haha..so many ny de. in the end, az decided to buy a nikey bag. hahaha..she choose so long lo. but she kena cheated. the label say last piece but in the end still got 1 more. haha.ok la..it's nice can, az. but i prefer the colour. haha. walk walk walk so much until my legs feel pain sia.somemore yest was so crowded due to the fireworks. omg.the fireworks was beautiful lo though i didnt get to c a full view. so sad is watch wif az ar..haha..not romantic. =P

haix

2006-08-07T05:37:00.000-07:00

haix. haix. though i dun really like him, at least there's peace btwn us. but the recent case of bickering is getting worst.

to say the truth, we tried to call u abt the rubbish bin. n mar shout to u to use the other door. but... since it already happened den i think i'm in no right position to say anything le. coz after thinking through, i think i will b angry too if it happens to me. ya.

so, please let the whole event of bickering stop. it's kinda affecting every1. almost every1 is affected. haix.haix. haix. time will heal. let the time takes over.

wad if i had juz say time will heal. i miss him now n den. mayb i need longer time..

enough of troubles le..somemore promo are becoming nearer n nearer.. i'm scare..really scare.. juz finish the chem test today only make me worry more..who can i rely on..? haix. my determination is getting weaker..

national day coming. hope i will have fun tml.

hate yS!!

2006-08-04T20:00:00.000-07:00

i dun like him. dunno y. i juz becoming more n more dislike him. juz like loving sum1 like yX n lw, there's no reason. n disliking sum1 is also no reason. well..tat's my personal view. okok..being biased here, u all may like him to wadever extend la, but i juz dun like him. well..he dun like me too. so it's fair. anyway, i think i will lose out coz i same pw grp as him n majority of the grp member will b on his side. so in the mean time i can only try to...well..act depends on situation lo.

oya..heard from tian cai they angry wif me lo. noe bcoz of wad??!! juz bcoz i dun wan take the file n ask daniel to pass to them. omg, they r guys la. n they expect shu jia to take the file lo.it's damn freaking heavy la. not as if they dunno, or they r juz pretending ignorant.huh. shu jia so skinny n wad..they r being inhumane. ok, now me. heard from yong cai, they wan ME to take. ok, i'm big n fat but i not easily bully. so, they even say tat day shld b i take de. omg. izzit bcoz u all having some sceret meetings tat i'm not noticed n some secret rules tat u all have set had forgotten to tell me..orh..den mayb shld tell me earlier huh. oya..dun forget our grp altogether have 5 members! is FIVE!! i dun c y after alvin taking the file will b me. give 1 reason. 1 perfect reason. 1 convincing reason. juz 1.i will take till the project is officially end. juz 1! y u urself need not take the file..???????!!!! anyway, there's still tian cai in our grp. izzit bcoz tian cai is now one of ur buddy buddy den he can excuse himself too????!!! orh...den shld i try n put myself as low as possible n bcum ur dear buddy buddy.huh. omg. shld i? huh.

haiz. nv have i been in a class n dislke 1 so much. NV. even when in 4/9 where every1 dun like yangxi, i still feel that he's totally ok. i dun feel any dislke towards him. well..neutral. i hate that. but i juz cant stop myself fron disliking him further.....well..he dislike me too..he didnt say but somehow i sense tat. even if that isnt he real feeling..his action shows.

hoho..i back

2006-08-02T07:19:00.000-07:00

been super super busy throughout the weekend. tiles thingy and have not finish yet so this weekend need to paste all the tiles on the wall. hopefully, we can finish everything on sun.

update: i failed my midyear. this disaster has not outbreak to my dad yet but seems like the truth cant keep for long as the result slip need to be sign.

anyway, i been thinking since long time back whether if i shld go to hk. well, a conclusion is finally set and that is i'm not going if i did not score well for my promo. what is well? at least pass all subjects with a C or D so sy n st stop asking me whether i wanna go le. so, i need to carry on with my boring and mono life with much more determination.

anyway, az bdae on the 5 of august. haha...old le. grow more mature la.. hahahahahaha.=p

life is busy. it's no longer what it seems to be. Or is it that our life is too simple in the past? There's a saying: stop looking back, u cant change it so move on to your own future.

wad can a welfare rep contribute? haha

2006-07-23T05:36:00.000-07:00

life's bored.

there's nothing to blog about lately.

juzt the common routine everyday. school, home, do homework and sleep. the process repeat itself almost everyday.

checking my edusave amounts tml so that i can confirm where i will wanna to go during the hols...china or hk?

i miss him.

i get elated upon receving his msg. whatever his msgs will be. dead.

wolalala

2006-07-20T09:53:00.000-07:00

went all the way to national library wif ann ngee, hong siang, kaibin n hong guang to meet yong cai, zhi yi(song shu), n marvin. along the way..i was finding my hp den i cant find lo. omg. it's lost. certified by me. i actually place under the table and forget to take my precious phone. how could i forget. BLANKED. den faster call michelle lo. lucky she still in sch den her take for me. hmmm..dunno if i have make a correct or a wrong choice. Correct: my phone is lost n FOUND. Wrong: all my secrets are no longer a secret. well..ya.

well..i shld take it as a correct 1 ba. it's better for her to c than to lost my precious phone, precious msgs, precious photos, precious video..i can only consider myself to b damn lucky. muahahaha.

been laughing non-stop since we left the library. goodness. song shu very funny lo. keep making me n ann ngee laugh. laugh till i stomach ache la. tootie zhi yi. =P no need eat i oso very full lo. laugh like a crazy gal. so aa. haha. the whole of kfc seems lto b fill with our monterous laughter. hahahahhahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahaha

=)=)=) i have a wonderful day out. =)=)=)

Hippee...tml no sch. !!!! yeah=]

jia you leh

2006-07-14T08:08:00.000-07:00

i moving towards them...

step by step......

i wont slack down..will i.hope not. omg.

jia you li sin, lw encouraging me..=) yup, jia you jia you! u too.

friendship can last forever?

2006-07-12T07:44:00.000-07:00

juz finish reading one of my friend blog. well, not angry but juz wanna clarify some things. well..we didnt meant to ignore her. but u are having mood swings. it's understandable since u not feeling well. but do u noe that it's SCARY! it really is. for now, we dunno wad's happening in ur life coz we no longer in the same sch so wad can u expect us to do? i noe. as a friend, we shld or i shld at least stay at ur side. however, i think u need to noe u making ppl scare of u when u r not happy. ur attitude. ya. i dun mind last time coz i noe wad's happening. but how can u expect me to b like last time? or do u wanna say i have nv been a good surporting friend to u.? den i have nth to say. hmm..we r not self-fish n self centred. i tried to call u though is using other phone wen i found that u went out. u nv ans the call.mayb i shld call a few more times but i thought u dun wan to b disturb. am i wrong? i oso remind those going out to cycle to keep a lookout for u coz u r feeling sick. we r thinking of wad u going to eat n ask other to rmb call back n us if u all wanna have breakfast while we eating mac. we reflected ourselves while we r going home. do u? or u r reflecting us? u r cold. we r scare. ur change is too fast. sudden cold n hot. hmm..i agree we wont noe wad u had been through. tat's y spend a thought for us. we went there to relax and escape frm the reality of life n throw those budden off. mayb u shld too. i noe it's wont b easy for u but at least try. k..u have been trying very hard to smile all these stuff..but r that frm ur bottom of heart? if not, there's no point. u shld find smth to make u smile. if we or i am the reason to make u cry den tell me. i will noe wad to do. coz we dunno wad's happening n life is already so sucky. well..mayb we r really worthless as u say. are we still friends...i hope so.

honesty, mayb i shldnt b there. i dun belong if not for a little few of u. i dun look forward to the trip.

still can promo..?

2006-07-06T18:38:00.000-07:00

haiz..u for phy, s for chem n a juz pass for math. the criteria to promo is to have 2 h2 pass..so u can infer eh..i cant if i continue to have this result. how. how. how?sian la. no face to go back cckss oso. arGhh...

skip sch today. not really skip oso lo. having sports day. or wad they say sports carnival. juz dun feel like celebrating anything and lots of hw haben finish ar.this is the 1st time tat i ever dun wish to go for sports day even though it will b fun, i think. partly, it's tooO far la. i sian diao.i will go next year. haha.if tat will b my last year.

come back from

2006-07-02T06:03:00.000-07:00

hehe..cum back from chalet le. quite fun coz keep taking photo. haha. can say zi lian kuang la. haha. hmm..done alot of mine survey too. hehe..part of my reason to go chalet..bad hor.. wanna upload the pics but muz wait for alot of ppl to send me the photo lo. haha.. hmm..i slp for 8 hours after i cum back for there lo. hohoho..pig ba.

going to study for my econs le. haha

ohhh..

2006-06-29T19:38:00.000-07:00

hmm..let me c. GP failed. Physics failed. Math mayb failed. Chem mayb failed. Chinese think can pass. Econs haben done yet. Haiz... haiz.. haiz..
so still can promo..? haiz..cannot le lo.. dEaD. o.0

anyway i changed my room arrangement le. haha. spent 1 whole day cleaning yest. omg. haha. sian la.

going for interview later.. all the best. haha

hmmmmm

2006-06-21T12:09:00.000-07:00

this year i received 2 tortoise as my present le. haha. wad make u all feel like giving me tortoise..? so wierd. haha..but i like them nonetheless.

kl still so funny as ever. he look bigger abit la. dun say dun haf. haha. gif u face sia. join cheerleading then keep training like siao. haha..jia you anyway.

hmm..woodlands library is so so so so so so so so osoooo full lo. den in the end, we 3 siao ki na went all the way to bugis in hope that national library will have seats for us. but.. so went to burger king n study. haha..only study for about 2 hours den we went off le. very short period. well..at least we did smth. hehe.

sian..midyr starting on this friday....i haben start studying yet. n here i am... 3am....writing my blog..haha..anyway..juz finish watching aqmfs ep 18 n 19. o...so nice..=P

omG..have to slp le.!!

2006-06-18T09:58:00.000-07:00

noe wad..i juz found out how to load pic into here. omg! i noe i am very slow la..but at least i finally noe how!!.haha omg..got pic le not juz words anymore.so excited can..now already 2am plus le.hehe

after bb concert...

the guy with white spec look like adriano at 1st sight hor..? haha..

hey, every1 wanna take pic with "adriano" haha.. hmm..notice smth..? i taller than eve leh..haha..yEAh! (i tip-toed) shhh..

cheer up! we r the gals power!!

can c our intruments..? wad??!! cannot..go check ur eyesight la.. haha..we r posing with our intruments leh..arent we look smart. =)

today after keat hong's concert...

matt the king, celia the queen n me the princess. lol. n the king cant stop singing!! "where's my mic" matt shouted.

hehe..we r STARS!! every1 wan our pics in their hp..omg..erm..wan a burger..? >.<

hmmm..i juz end off with i miss 4/9! every1 lo. esp pipat.haha..coz cant c him anywhere in spore le. miss the fun man. haha.. ah tan(popping out his head at the back) n mrs philips rox..=)

2006-06-15T09:56:00.000-07:00

[you're single because you don't want to slow down

Whether you're working all hours, busy with school, or planning a cross-country move, it sounds like you just don't have time for anyone else in your life...right now, that is. Your timing may be off in other aspects, too. Chances are, you've met that perfect person who just so happens to be married or planning their own cross-country move. So take a step back for a moment. Is there something underlying this? Could it be you're afraid to get involved for some reason or another, and are therefore attracted to people who are simply unavailable?Whether you're secretly sabotaging yourself or not, try a little exercise. Open your mind to those who are around you (and available!) right now. Then let up on your schedule to let that someone in. That is, unless you want to get married to your goals, and not Mr. or Mrs. Right.]

hmm..so sian. exam cuming soon soon soon soon soon. omg! how ar..? didnt study much lo. sian la.arGhhh..

shld i agree or not..? i'm scare.

wuhaha

2006-06-14T06:34:00.000-07:00

i'm a flicker-minded gal.

hmm..mayb the wound had been too deep n had nv been healed. tat's y wen u hurt it again, it's painless. try harder. cut deeper. let's my blood flows. will u.

hmmm..went for my 1st tuition. haha. pig head fu teach de. hmm..to be truthful, he not bad la. ok, well, is good lo. show my stupidness. i still.. haiz..muz study le la. orelse really like wad pig head fu said: fail my midyear den cant even promo. haha..he really is a good teacher. =) learn alot of things today. so later muz revise.

this few days keep eating fast food as my meal. omg. becoming fatter le la. n fast food yucks now. yucks. but i dunno wad to eat wen mum not cooking. sian la. can human survive by not eating anything.?

noe wad. think pjc appear to b my sch lo. keep going to pj to do my hw n revise. wad's going on me.? but, nyjc too far le la. really far lo. the duration i travel to pj den travel back to my hse is the duration i take to ny. am i regret.? haha, no time to regret. so, i will enjoy. (hope so)

pw sux la. hols ending soon. n we cant do anything abt it. hate those govt body. so many processes b4 we can go for an interview. after such a long waiting n might not be able to interview any1. so how now..??? aRgHH.........

aRGhh....

ArgHhh....

thanks for ignoring me.

2006-06-11T09:35:00.000-07:00

bbco concert ended quite successfully, i think. have a fun day. haha.mayb i was damn crazy. wen toking abt "the little red riding hood" or "adriano"(i dunno how to spell) n nv did i noe he noe friends frm ny lo. haha.world is so small..take loads of pic. hope jun^2 can faster upload to me. heehee..so excited. siao.

still going bb..? dunno.

haiz..utterly bad mood. things haben been going smoothly as i want. life suX.

get loss

2006-06-02T20:40:00.000-07:00

u came into my life n disrupt it again.

juz get lost

think u dont know how deep u hurt me during sec3.

will you?

but, if u mean to create chaos in my life can i ask u to leave now..?

i juz wan..

u always give me answer that arent clear..what do u wan me to do..?

peace

hate u man.

get lost

if u dun mean what u said to me earlier.

2006-06-01T20:37:00.000-07:00

yest went to kbox with ml n chelle. haha. quite funny lo. haha. anyway, saw wen xi. haha. my 3 mon classmate. she more pretty le. haha. mayb get spolit my guys in cj.=p

anyway, i'm a foolish girl.

if u dun mean what u say, juz leave me alone,will u?

Can pardon me some peace? asshole.

2006-05-29T06:17:00.000-07:00

At the moment of your birth the Sun was positioned in Taurus, which ensured that Venus, the ruler of this Zodiac sign, had a strong impact on your nature. The very name of Venus means mercy of gods. Being the embodied beauty and prosperity, she inspires an urge towards material and spiritual development. It is she who endowed you with love for comfort, solidity, reliability and steadiness, which is likely to result in a tranquil, well-balanced temper.As you value earthly things, your dreams also remain down to earth and you are somewhat sluggish. The symbol of creation, Taurus steadily stands on his ground refined by the plow. It is his basic industriousness that nourishes the roots of the sacred ashok tree, the birthplace of Buddha according to a legend. However, you don't consider life as work for work's sake - your efforts are always aimed at a practical result. Once it is achieved, you enjoy your well-deserved vacation that usually is not less fruitful than your work. Powerful desires and a taste of life adopted from the goddess Venus allow you to take delight in contemplating invaluable masterpieces of the material world.No matter what your present hobby is - music, arts or collecting stamps - you approach your every passion from a realistic point of view. To you, a practical approach to life is more important than the elevated ideas of society, family or nature. Exploring the world of forms and materials, you experience that beauty of material things is only a part of the general harmony of the universe. Having realized this, you will be able to continuously and steadily climb to mental and spiritual eminence; just the same way you were conquering the material world. Peaceful by nature, you are able to cope with a heavy emotional burden for a long time so that others don't even notice it.Like a cordial and friendly host, you try to create a comfortable atmosphere for every person around you. Yet when your calm is shattered, the mild calf instantly turns into a raging bull. Your rage is ugly and may bring upon more destruction than Scorpio's, the most ruthless sign. Fortunately, it is not easy to drive you mad, the most effective means in this case being irony that you often interpret as an undisguised mockery. Having collected a dozen of unmerited insults, you explode with furious rage ignoring all barriers and conventions. You are a determined, authoritative, persistent and reticent person. You tend to conceal your plans, and once you failed to realize them outright, you are sure to detour to finally gain your end. It is quite likely that your father used to hold a position at some institution of power or was overloaded with work and business trips and thus did not manage to pay adequate attention to your education. As a result, since the very childhood you have adopted a habit of making decisions by yourself and relying upon your own forces. Your life is a permanent battle, a series of skirmishes you must win. Your skill in handling money and finding business partners allows you to arrange deals involving capitals significantly exceeding your own. You are inclined to overestimate yourself and your abilities. The result is that you often scatter your effort and, wishing to excel in many fields at once, suffer failures. You may behave very egocentrically, become full of yourself, overestimate your own merits and give advice without being asked.You are an incorrigible optimist, and this feature doesn't allow you to see others and yourself in the right light. At times, you share what you have with everyone with no distinction and thrust yourself on people. To still your ambitions, you may make a career without any regard for moral values.Your ambitions may result in many achievements. You have good tutoring skills. You have an agreeable, perceptive and imaginative nature capable of handling any private or social problem, but hardly adjustable to family ties. Your brain just sucks in knowledge and adapts perfectly to any new circumstances.You can easily achieve positive results in several different fields simultaneously, but you are unlikely to set the world on fire. You are sociable and outgoing, although sometimes too highly strung. You try to avoid conflicts and complicated activities requiring much emotional sacrifice, and dislike extra duties. In disputes you prefer sound logical reasoning to emotions, or may try to laugh the problem away. You love intellectual contests, games and teamwork and have much sympathy for those who share your interests and ideas. You guard your private life zealously, but like chatting about everybody else's and thus are not overly fond of reserved people. It reveals that you are a born teacher, trainer and mentor. It is very likely that you travel a lot when you are young or spend a lot of time studying a foreign culture, philosophy, history or religion. Subliminally, you are attracted by anything that is far away, in other countries or yet unknown. It is very important that you receive a good education and are surrounded by the right people. Your philosophy is based on your own ideals and social and moral values. Your convictions are of an emotional, rather than rational nature. You have the aptitude for advertising or publishing activities, legal matters and gaining insight into deeply lodged social problems. You are generous, friendly and altruistic.You always try to help relatives and often dedicate yourself to home and family. You may make a career in religion, philosophy, journalism and sports. Wealth may come to you through inheritance or a lucrative deal. Weak morals may push you towards crime. It is hard for you to be liberated in your feelings. You worry because you often cannot establish a warm-hearted relationship with your relatives. Others see you as emotionally deaf and a stern person and don't suspect that a real tornado of emotions is ravaging your heart. You may feel lonely even at a loud party. You are capable of austerity, self-sacrifice and self-neglect for public interests. Your mental discomfort may be enrooted in your early childhood and strained family relationship.If you haven't sorted out the problems with your mother, it may hamper the harmony of your marriage. You have a bubbly eccentric nature, advanced intuition and occult talents. You are eager to learn about new ideas and inventions and spontaneously find unconventional solutions. You like extravagant and independent relationships. You are quick-witted but sometimes foolhardy and overly optimistic, lacking thoroughness and the ability to evaluate difficulties of numerous activities into which you often rush impulsively. As a rule, your desire for studying is caused by your ambitiousness and striving for leadership. A cause of your pain is if somebody doubts your superiority. You debate readily, although your arguments are too much colored by emotions. You can easily be irritated by the slowness of one's mental activity. Sometimes your judgments are too biased and, thus, subjective. You are a straightforward person. Selfish and egocentric, you follow your impulses with little or no regards for the consequences either to yourself or others. You are elated by everything new and unexplored, but you can go from one thing to another without finishing what you have started. You seem to lack time for seeing through all your projects. You know how to establish useful contacts and work in a team. You like your partners to have above-average intelligence, as you enjoy talking to smart people. You feel comfortable enough in any discussion, debate or negotiations.In a partnership above all you value an intelligent conversation. You possess a significant intellectual potential. Your words are always followed by actions. You have handy skills and take effort to finish what you are doing. Your plans go into detail. You like to argue and convince opponents by logic. You are determined and unyielding when you work for your goal. You are a sensitive, tender nature, understanding of authentic beauty and love for comfort. Your attraction to beautiful things cannot be equaled. You appreciate everything that makes your life full of comfort and pleasure. Your financial security is rather important to you, too. Preferring to revise your feelings over and over again, you would not get into a hasty marriage. Physical beauty of your partner is also of primary importance, often forcing you to spend most of your life seeking perfection and never making a final choice. You are very sensitive and hold grudges for a long time. This can impede the settling of your personal problems, especially if you are not getting enough attention and warmth. You may express your feelings in a morbid, pained way because of obsessive fear to lose your love partner. You prefer hot and even thunderous emotions to still and quiet ones. You dive into a new love without reservations and expect fidelity and respect from your partner. Casual and superficial affairs bear no attraction for you. A marriage or companionship with a person, who is standing close to power or big financial structures and can help you attain material wealth and security, is likely. You also may have success with banking operations and large-scale social projects.

quite true leh. think abt 85% is accurate ba. haha. shit la. really in holiday mood le. dun feel like doing any tutorials. dead.
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The brightly shining sun
Warms down upon my face,
I'm sitting here quietly
Within my favorite place.
Contemplating life
And all it means to me,
Unable to imagine
If no longer we could be.
Though we've yet to meet
It seems I know you well,
That deeper laugh of yours
Has a way to tell.
The smile there on your face
Though I can not see,
Tells me what I need to know
And feels warm inside of me.
Somehow I just know
How your touch will feel,
A safe and secure bond
Somehow I know is real.
My head tells me simple
I need to go slow,
But the sound of your voice
Says all I need to know.
Like a child's blanket
All soft and warm inside,
With you a find a comfort
That cannot be denied.
No pretenses here
No hidden fancy airs,
I simply speak my mind
To let you know I care.
My heart is an open book,
I hide not what I feel,
I want to share it all with you
And find out if this is real.

oya

2006-05-28T10:44:00.001-07:00

haha..forget to mention tat today graduated frm KA. well..those pjc ppl out there u will get to experience smth different if u put ur 100% in. it's so fun lo. i was late coz of bbcc. watch a show. it a nice 1 though i dun rmb what's the name of the show. it's tells us to dream on. believe what u can make is a different even how small it could seen. well..mayb not learn frm the movie at least frm sheena. =) it's really great knowing her.! have bbq today.haha.. keep kena scoldings fr the security guard. so funny. omg..i gain a few more kgs le. dead.!!! haha..slim down plan starting frm tml. hope i will follow strictly to it..haha..=p

i changed.?

2006-05-28T10:25:00.000-07:00

well, well, well..i changed..? better or worst.? i oso dunno. alvin told me i changed to not pleasent now. mayb i'm juz showing my attitude or mood swings or dun really give a damn abt inimpt things in my life or juz not being pleasent anymore. hope i know what's happening inside me too.

i think sometimes when u see a person's action need not have anything to do with his character or whatsoever. aiya, i oso dunno what am i saying.

this hols will be a very busy holiday. need to study for mid year, wanna go shopping, haf to pract for the coming concert on 11june, have to finish all the assignment....so busy busy.=(

It's impossible to find someone who will never hurt you, so go for the one who's worth all the pain.

feel like crying

2006-05-27T01:15:00.000-07:00

How can I go on

When I know I gave it all

Have I given too much

Something inside your heart

Is pushing me aside

And it seems so un-you baby

But it's so hard on me

What is it I'm seeing in your eyes

The story that I'm reading says goodbye

Tell me baby where did we go wrong

How did we lose a love so strong

What can I say to make things right

Baby hold on,

don't leave tonight

There's no reason why

This part of us should die

Don't say goodbye

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haiz, bring 2 heavy phy file to sch den back to cckss. den realise the files did not contain anything that ah tan want. so be it. haha. den call az lo. so sian la. went to pjc in the end. went there as though it's my sch lo. no security guard stopped me even though i was wearing ny pe shirt. so went there n walk around myself coz eve n az got college's day thingy den sy n ml got co practices so i walk walk lo. haha..saw anton n chin yang..den we crap quite alot. so miss them..miss the whole bunch..their sch has movie day tat day..so went in n watch nadia(**dunno how to spell) haha. i was watching beside alice den suddenly we heard loud "thugs" "thugs" behind. so we turned back n saw....... a human. haha..we were shock lo. thought wad was tat..damn dark in the LT lo. Alice n i were like wth is tat person lo. haha..but very funny. den as usual, taking off my shoes. haha..but az hit me lo..so sad..haha=p

after that, went to lot1 with eve, alice, n ml. coz i dun wan watch movie. haha..went to eat long john. n walk walk. saw a very nice movie..it's says wad on the 6th day of the 6months in the year 2006..haha..sound nice.

hmm..muz buck up as usual..but will i..?

dunno y i miss my ex classmates so much..

2006-05-21T08:19:00.000-07:00

li sin, you're a Romantic Realist

When it comes to relationships, you're looking for a fairy tale — or something pretty close to it. While you don't really expect to be whisked away by a prince on a white horse, you probably like the idea of being rescued — as long as you're allowed to rescue back. You expect great things out of people, especially those you love, and you don't mind putting in the extra effort to make sure everyone (including yourself) is happy.Tradition is usually important to you, as long as it's mixed with your own personality. Sure, flowers and candy are great, but when it comes to showing affection, you simply want something that is unique and special to your relationship. For you, it's always the thought that counts.

my bdae!!

2006-05-17T07:08:00.000-07:00

today my bdae!! haha. hmm..yest midnight, li yhee gif me a call but i slp le..thanks her alot. though noe her barely 3 months..she rmb me..=)so happy la. oya..den reach sch..many ppl wish me happy bdae too..haha..novi the first in sch..=)well...den the class sing bdae song for me during pw lesson.somemore wanna sing the monkey version 1 lo..haha..so funny la..thanks man. =) oya..n ann ngee make a card for me..though it's last min n only use a4 size plain paper, still appreciate tat lo..haha..coz it's nice!! =)

den after sch meet me sec sch friends!! bought me a cake n we went to andrea's hse to eat..n my dinner is the loads of chips..haha..so full..grow fatter oso..=p haha..they very bad lo..say my phone like me..slow..haha..but i agree la. damn slow. actually wanna go sch den ah tan not in sch..so suan le..haha..haf great fun in andrea's hse..=) hmm....but i still not sure hu share in the present leh...?.?

anyway...i'm 17 years old le..yeah!! haha.

hmm..dunno y, wen i in a relationship, i hate relationship. ya. some1 tell me y.??

headache lo..

2006-05-14T09:36:00.000-07:00

went bbco. late as usual. going to have performance in abt 1 month time. dun really dun the songs very well. got to pract le. sian. later go on stage throw face. anyway, any1 interested to watch the concert..??? it's selling at $8 per piece.

went out wif yx today. well, both of our mum not celebrating mother's day ma. somemore wed is my bdae and is a weekday so can i treat it as him wanna acc me today to compensate for wed..? went to ps there to play lan. sian la. in the end we play for only a while n left. total cost only $0.80 la. den went all the way to wm watch poesidon. crazy hor. but we really deprived things to tok of la. but anyway, he treat me watch the movie.=) den send me home la...hehe..he smell nice. (hugz)

finish gpp finally. oya. i changed my hp no le. if i forget to msg u abt my new no..pls tagged to inform me..so sorry.

<(i wan to officially name u as my girlfriend, can i? ) don ignore me alone, cos i nid u. (i'll wait till u sleep)> i feel so cruel....will i gif him a chance..? it's not up to me to decide.. tat's depend how much determination he haf to melt my heart

oya

2006-05-12T10:37:00.000-07:00

oya..i am damn happy happy happy rite now.. well, even though my bdae still got a few days away. i received a email frm my cute ah tan lo.. so happy happy lo..really happy la.. dunno how he noe.. dun care.. haha..so happy even though juz a few words...saying happy bdae. but this show the concern. i appreciate tat. really happy la. thanks man. =)
feel so motivated by ah tan!!!!

one whole day out..

2006-05-12T09:49:00.000-07:00

9am i reach bishan le. n noe wad. ys n tc haben reach. tc still ok la. but tat idiot monkey insisted to meet at 9am instead of a later time n he was late for abt 1 hour lo. wth la. so he own me a meal lo. but keep arguing tat he only own me a banana.. wadever lo. haha.

meet eve at around 1 plus. haha..we were like where can we go la.. wander around j8 den i suggest go take neoprints lo..haha..ya..only we 2 taking..den saw tc they all..they oso taking.. anyway, this time round eve n my neoprints look muchmuch nicer than the previous 1 where we took at yishun..

went to ajco concert after tat. generally, is nice la. except tat i am very tired..almost fall asleep wen the liu qing solo..but woke up by a chinese singer..dunno wad she singing lo..evry1 was kinda laughing la..

went to eat supper after tat..it's mac again. my breakfast was at mac. my lunch was at mac den my supper again at mac. seh..no more mac for me..pls..=p

patch up wif yx le. but kind of busy about our own life oso. anyway..well..nth la.

doing gpp now..at 1.15am..sian..

whooo

2006-05-10T07:55:00.000-07:00

how.? think i will accept him again if he ever ask. how? it's yx la. well....i dunno. mayb i still haf some feelings toward him lo..really, haiz..1 trouble haben ended 1 come..haha..i treat this as a trouble..hmm..i dun think so sia..=)
love him......
??????

hungry..y suddenly so hungry

2006-05-09T03:54:00.000-07:00

i so pro lo..yest only ate a pao, watermelon n papaya n a cup of chocolate blended n no more.!! hmmm..slp at 6pm n den wake up at 6am lo..shiok la..but i didnt get to finish any hw. sian. anyway, i'm still tired la. hohoho. i'm a damn piggy lo.slp so much den the stupid fire drill today eat my half n hour break n make me hungry till 11 plus den eat..whew..lucky ms ng today nv cum sch. haha..orelse i faint of hunger..in singapore sia..throw face lo. =p

anyway, quite of a happy mood today. i think i going crazy la. juz received msg frm yx n i feel happy.. wad's going on wif me..??!! actually wanna send him a nitey msg yest nite but fall asleep..hehe. but he msg me..xin you ling xi..? haha..i think too much ba. but my day got abit spolit by tat monkey lo..keep making me..told him i happy today dun wan fight wif him but he juz wanna make me..=x haha..he's so funny oso. aiya..wad am i toking..??

seh..think i so damn mood swing lo.. juz say i very happy den now i'm going to say i'm very sad.. i get very poor result lo...n they will b counted in my promo..how??? well..i might seem wadever n calm in sch. but i'm not really tat calm la. juz get a subpass in chem n econs lo which is a e grade. dun think my other sub will do well too..including my chinese..wad am i'm going to do..??? will i get to promo..? haf to buck up sooon..but wen is soon..??

feeling hungry rite now.....yum yum yum..i wan food. =)

project n project n still project

2006-05-07T03:40:00.000-07:00

it's project, project and project.

yest meet for pw at toa pah yoh's long john den kena chase out lo..so in the end we went to the bus interchange there n sit on the floor n finish out everything la. noe wad..while we were doing, my phone rang la. somemore is ask me if i wanna go for a job interview for the manager position lo. i was like huh? keep saying okokok. den he told me he will send some1 to raffles place to bring me to his building..den i was like o..okok..so told alvin, ann ngee n shu jia la..coz tat monkey listening to mp3..so nv go in the end..they say very dangerous..well, i thought so too..=0

after tat went to bishan take neoprints den to amk watch mission impossible3. quite nice..=) not bad..exciting ar..haha

den today went to ps early morning for Q^2 meeting..tat's y nv go to bb..busy busy busy....life suddenly bcum more busy n busy than i can think...

hmmm

2006-05-04T03:41:00.000-07:00

We are always searching in life

For that special thing

That thing that makes us fly without wings

When I close my eyes, every single night

All I see is that beautiful sight

That thing I want to touch and hold

That thing better than silver and gold

This thing shares my hopes and dreams

And helps me understand how love should be

It will stand by my side

And will dry my tears when I cry

It will be my best friend

Who will be there till the end

There's nothing in this world

I'd rather feel Than to be in love with the real deal

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actually dun feel like going to sch yest..so damn tired la.. shit..i beta get rid of tat feeling.. orelse.. haha..confirm like 3 mon liddat...which cannot happen.

tat idiot ys..chase him into the boy's toliet la..lucky no1 inside..haha.. anyway..not first time go boy's toliet le..been in the boy's toliet quite a few times wen in cckss lo.. rite..gals..(sy esp.) haha

tml 2.4 naffa test sia..hope can at least clinched a sliver lo..i dun wan afternoon pe la.. somemore, after tat we will b having math test den chinese test den gp test with no break inbtwn la.. DEAD. haha..

i spend 2 hours travelling home today n yest sia..i slp in bus den past cjc. so i sit all the way to clementi for abt 1 hr plus lo..tired.. tml cannot slp while going home le..

good luck..

tired...

2006-04-29T21:29:00.000-07:00

tired... yest synergy n today i wake up at 11 plus.. shiok ar.. long long long time nv slp till so long le. feel so full suddenly. quite a few thing to blog today..

fri is the speech day for cckss den i went back at around 7 plus but they already ended so eat their refreshment n heard a few horny jokes by ah liat (geo cher) haha..he not very cool tat day. funny. cute. haha. k la..i bought the banana there den every1 is like omg lo..so dirty-minded.haha. after tat went bp de kopitam. tok tok tok. soon, every1 wanna go home le.. den me, chelle, az, ml, alice, andrea went to the playground above bp to tok. hmmm..abt until 11 den we go home..tired.

actually i need to b in sch at 730 for co la.. but i reach at 930 instead... well..i was juz too tired...!! anyway, they only rehearsed how to go up n down only... cannot scarified my sleep..no way! hmm...the maltinee very paiseh la..my ball of stick flew out lo..while i was playing..i was shocked! haha..hope not alot ppl saw tat..the nite 1 i think is beta..yeah. =) but i think i got mood swing....so dun feel like toking to any1..but lucky dun last very long..

now going out le.....hehe..tml is a hol...=)

pw grouping

2006-04-25T04:50:00.000-07:00

saw ann ngee in the bus today..den she make me laugh like crazy lo.. somemore the bus was extremely quiet..n so the bus was filled wif ann ngee n mine beautiful voices. haha.

measure temp..so sad la..only 36.6degrees. thought i will get like 38degrees so i can jolly well go home n slack. but, well...no choices. so dragged myself to the class lo. sian.

it's carol bdae today. erm..hahaha.. erm..hehehe. haha..tat her trademark. sing bdae song again n again. den play wif the cake.. wah seh..face creamy creamy de.. later grow pimples.. den die liao..haha anyway, carol was touched.

hmmm..i was so excited tat later in the afternoon i will noe my pw group. den thinking and hoping i won get into the same group as hu...lucky nv get la. haha.. anyway..oso not very lucky la..dunno is coincidence or wad..i get the into the same as those i bicker so much. noe wad..wen gurmit singh(my pw cher) say group3 den alvin. lisin. sunddenly evryone was clapping so happily. oso dunno y. den shu jia, follow by tian cai la. the last one. every1 was so damn excited.haha..heard some1 keep shouting yongshun name. den really is him lo. wah seh.. dunno how mr singh group de. haha anyway, anyway, anyway....still ok la..juz tat tat tootie ys keep bullying me..haha.=p he is a pai kia. yeah.

hmmmm..not sure if i wan go speech day leh.. almost whole of 4/9 is invited there to collect prize..den me only got 4 pathetic a is not invited..haha..wasted lo...hmm...mayb ask those like me de..go cdans play bowling..yeah or even laserquest. yeah.. going to haf fun..? haha yeah.

2006-04-24T05:47:00.000-07:00

hehe..so happy i found my lost file intact.. but..think my chem 1st test going to fail like hell..can imagine papers coloured red wif single digits mark only..sad sia..

help me do this can...? pls..
http://kevan.org/nohari?name=lisiN
and
http://kevan.org/johari?name=lisiN
thanks alot people..haha..=)

2006-04-22T02:53:00.000-07:00

i lost my file..!!! how..???!!! my notes n tutorial all inside lo...i'm dead!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

outings

2006-04-20T06:02:00.000-07:00

noe wad. i haf been gd moods today. esp in the morning. y? thought yx dun even wanna b friend wif me le. but he reply me last nite wen i send him a gd nite msg. haha..i'm crazy la. juz miss him abit. but wad he reply are sweet. really.=)

hmm..after listen to the smu talks, i think smu not bad leh. but only if i wanna study accountancy or wadever link to economics de..but till now i dun even noe how i will flare in my jc life..not very positive.

went to 0619 outing after the smu talks, only about 10ppl including me. tat's quite little though. anyway, i leave abt 30mins later. hmm..i dun need pay sia. coz i am being smuggle in. haha. my mood not very high there sia. mayb the room too big le..not like cck there small n cosy. somemore the song all very sad sad de.

after that, meet michelle in the bus156 and went to cckss. andrea is the earliest lo. haha..den follow by me n chelle, den alex n bk n lastly the tootie pj ppl---sy, az n ml..haha..n sy n ml smell of cream n very smelly lo.. smell like sum1 vomitted on them de. haha..den we very bad keep saying they very smelly. we tok to ah tan..haha..den wen he wanna c my cert.i pull away sia..quite rude, i noe. but juz the thought tat he c b3 for phy on my cert make me feel so inferior. haha..we will very noisy, n the sec4 r having their orals.bad, rite? rite. ;p tok quite a while wif mrs philips. told her i fail my function test. den she tease me saying tat the basic to pass o. haha. so paiseh. hmm..den tell her i wanna cum back occasionally to let her scold me so tat i will not slack too much. so funny lo. i still need to make appointment wif her so tat she can a list of wad to scold me. den told the whole lot tat 0619 always bully me..haha..say me gorilla. noe wad. every1 started laughing non-stop lo. even mrs philips laughing sia. wth. haha. alex still say quite fit me sia. wth. wth. haha.;p

went to eat long john. so long nv eat le. haha. nice. nice. haha. went to c got wad movie. den decided to watch a horror show. haha..on sunday..yipeee...shall b a 4/9 outing..? looking forward to b horrified. yeah =)

wtf

2006-04-18T09:01:00.000-07:00

wtf..u..yes!! u!! tootie yING huA!! nth beta to do sia..i wan go slp liao den saw ur tootie tag..make me write 1 more time b4 i go..smack u sia..haha..=P

hmm..7 qualities: 1)make me feel like a princess (coz he muz b a prince..haha)
2)love me (for sure la)
3)average looking (i oso not gd looking..hee..i got integrity sia)
4)understand my needs (mood change n slow sometimes ;P)
5)humorous (life would b more fun!!!)
6)wan me as i am (i wont change bcoz u wan me to change!)
7)gd kisseer (haha..cant think of any other things le)

thanks man..yh..!! haha..these ppl tagged by me pls blog abt the 7 qualities of ur prefect lovers, do specify the gender. then, list down and tag another seven bloggers on their pages. if you've been tagged, you need not do this again. they are........1)Celia 2)ee hwa 3)vivian 4)adibah 5)lincoln 6)yuding 7) all 0619members (every1 of u muz blog hor..either in ur own blog or the class 1)

finish draft2

2006-04-18T08:55:00.000-07:00

finally finish my pi draft 2 le. dunno if it's ok not. shall wait for my comment tml. but still cant slp yet..hw still waiting for me......sad sia.. now already 12am. hope tml i won b late..

hmm..after listening to lincoln n novi, i msg him n told him no le. feel so relax now. thanks man. he oso ok wif it. ;) hee..nyjc life continues..

headache..

2006-04-16T03:55:00.000-07:00

having headache for dunno how many days le..den juz now measure mt temp abt 37.2 degree. not very high, i noe. but it's making me feeling so crampy. not only tat, my neck area ache too..wad's happening to me..? juz cant do anything rite.

o..y am i here blogging..??!! i still haf loaps of hw waiting for me but juz cant bear to use my already aching brain..oppss..i haf brains..? haha...so sian.

he told me gif him an ans now..i going to ignore him or juz tell him no..? hmm..bet most of u will say juz say no la..well..i thinking of ignoring..haha... haf enough trouble to care le..

my hse got 1 more cat. the face like pan cake la..haha..so funny lo..is my mum's friends de juz to take care a few days but my dear (ah pui) got so jealous lo..almost bite me wen i tried to console him. den dun wan me to go near him..wth la..

i dun feel like going sch tml leh..but juz cant missed those lessons..sian sian. n wtf..my mp3 spoil le. hope i will do my hw le..

tata.

sy

2006-04-14T07:38:00.000-07:00

chatting wif sy now.. miss the bickers.. although i got lots of bickers in ny now, it juz so different. mayb tat bcoz i noe sy abt 3 yrs plus ba..we noe each other too well. hmm..juz got to adapt.

read my ct ppl blogs, almost all of them say mt ct0619 not unite. well, ok la. juz tat got 2 groups ma. well..tat normal i think. coz the 1st intake in the old ct will tend to b wif the old ppl ma.. den the 2nd intakers or not their ct b4 will bond lo. well...i belong to the 2nd group i think.. feel more relax wif them..

sian la, tml got nyco pract. i oso dunno i go there pract wad..haha..juz " clang" " clang" anyway..thinking of blow back sheng after synergy.

got to do my hw le..stress sia..lots of thing i still dunno...........

cckss

2006-04-10T03:46:00.000-07:00

told him i think i will accept him ba..think only lo..wadever la..
i found out today i really like math lesson. oya..is love math from all my other sub. although i didnt study during 1st 3 mon, i will buck up now..
went back to cckss alone..sad rite..actually wen i reach i feel so wierd lo..call az n sy den they not free la..den suan le.find mr kong but he out..sian..but saw ah tan..so happy..long time nv c them le lo..i oso mrs tang.she so friendly..help me ask mr kong den later tell me lo..;) hmmmmmmmm...ah tan stress sia..heart ache..haha....he my favourite teacher lo..other than mr kong, mrs philips....den nv get to c mrs philips...think i go there too late le.. anyway..the stuff toys in ah tan car change le leh..not tat many cute thingy le..but got 1 super dooper dooper cute de pig!! pink colour somemore..haha.. but ah tan insisted tat tat is a cow not a pig...haha..next time u all shld go c if it is a pig or cow... really cute pig..:P like it man...
going to sch earlier to run..hope i can wake up..going to do my econs le.. looking forward to the next time i going back cckss..;)

2006-04-07T21:52:00.000-07:00

went to donate blood yest..not pain at all la..actually feel quite good after tat..den get to choose the colour of bandage i wan..haha..hehe..orange de..wif smilely face oso..

den went to bishan lo..my last time class de outing..0625..which haf quite the same no of gals n boy de..but the gals went to eat swensen le..i nv went wif them la..coz they leave sch first while i donating my blood..so wen i reach yc call me n meet a group of boys lo..den they keep saying me i oso boy la..well..haha..they damn bad la..wen i tok to them hor..keep ignoring me la..den say cannot c me too..haha..hehe..went o take neoprints together..so funny lo..so nice too...

2006-04-05T07:37:00.000-07:00

You must be havin' a laugh! You go for the clown type!

Laughter is the way to your heart. A man with a fab sense of humour is definitely the one for you! You want a Clown, someone who can laugh at himself and make you laugh, too. There's nothing more tedious than a man who takes himself too seriously. You know that if a chap is silly, he's generally self-confident and secure. Your man is a people magnet and everyone's favourite friend. There's never a dull moment with your clown nearby. You crave excitement and a bit of a laugh, and your clown enhances those things in your life. You probably think life is too short to spend it without a smile. Your witty lad will ensure that that doesn't happen - his light hearted and silly ways make everything a little bit brighter.

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hmmm..co slack as usual. not joining interact oso coz clash wif co la. sian. thought i can join both..sian la. hmmm...very tired now...but watching da chang jin leh..haha.. later think i will need to pia my PI le..orelse no time.. went to tok to kl juz now..haha..nice tok. ;)

so sian

2006-04-02T00:17:00.000-08:00

yest the nyco very sian la. haiz i was there at abt 12 plus den c them eat their lunch den went for comb pract. i was in percussion ma..but i play the easiest one so only a few bars for me to play so sian la.. haha..damn easy oso. so i think quite waste my time there though. so after that went to jurong library..actually wanna take bus there but i take the wrong side so in the end went all the way to serangoon interchange so take train instead lo. stay in the library for abt 2 hours plus den went home la.

went to bbco juz now..ok lo..ya..ai ya..think i oso quite waste time there la..except go there tok not waste time only.. haha..think oso noe y i go there waste time..sian la.. oya..haha..tat tootie eve stole my thing ar..haha..dunno wad the name call anyway..haha..oya..i rmb i told her i going to haunt her sia.. shit..muz remind me hor..;p

going to rain soon..my mood oso went down.. down.. down.. bottom-less pit.. still going down.. think i going to bcum a zombie le.. haha..y leh..? wen i wanna ask myself wad am i thinking or feeling now.. blank is the only right word to describe..

life so dull suddenly...

haiz

2006-03-30T03:07:00.000-08:00

k, i confirm i am in nyco le but is in psercussion grp instead of woodwind-sheng le.haha.quite fun n damn slack la. so i intending to join interact club oso to help ppl lo. been thinking of tat for quite a few years le but dunno where to join. hmmm..anyway i quit db le. i miss db. really. i was feeling so gulity den so paiseh wen c yuan ting n lin hong..n now so empty..i'm really sry tat i leave the team so sudden. initially, i was sick den i find out i cant manage my work well. so, i left wif no choice. k, it's might b my excuse. den let it b. coz till now i noe i still miss the tough trainings i haf wif the whole lots of dragonboaters. jia you every1! i cherish the moments i spent wif u all.

haiz, sch starts le. pw oso. hard. hard hard. sian. sian. sian. life starts to bcum a routine again, repeating everyday. got to mug. really start mugging. my ct very clever lo. me so tootie. arghhh...wen can i bcum cleverer..?! tootie gal.

i make sure latest by next week wed i need to b healthy again so that i can go donate blood. yippee..although sound n look very pain..but feel like trying coz sec3 didnt get a chance.

problems arise wen ur life starts to settle down.. shld i accept him again..? i really dunno...sian la. but...let me think again..again n again.. even if like tat i oso dun think i will haf an ans. let nature take it course den. juz dun c him den i wont need to gif him an ans lo..haha..tat stuipid, rite..? well, it;s suggested by me, tootie gal lo. sian. haha.

tata

mugg..

2006-03-28T06:41:00.001-08:00

orientation over le..miss it..but my voice still mute mute de..haha
mugging my hw now...sian...

wow

2006-03-15T17:46:00.000-08:00

noe wad..i ran abt 5km yest during db training..not really run la..jog..tat y i can jog non-stop wif the pacers..it's a bit wierd though. i cant run a short distance. ya, run. tat's y i cant, i think. but got to train up. i dun wan to b the last few everytime wen we need to run. yest sun was very hot. hehe, but didnt get any darker coz my sun block damn strong. den lin hong say i shldnt put any sun block lo..coz i damn white..haha.. yest rowing wasnt tat fun coz the boat move very slow. i still prefer to row wif the seniors though it's meant harder training but at least i got train. ;)

after tat went to ice skate wif my pri sch friends..only 2 la..sian lo..coz all dunno vanished to where liao. lucky got brana n his bro..orelse i will feel so strange wif jancis only..coz she bring her bf n friends ma..got offer yest for $8 for unlimited time..so lucky me orelse i will juz wait outside for them lo..or juz go home.. whew..so long nv skate i still can skate lo..hehe but still fell a few times..reach home 9 plus..damn tired..den somemore my back ache sia..think frm rowing..haha..now feel beta le..

going to queenways later wif yolk y..haha..hehe..hoho..

will i still accept him...? to speak the truth, i dunno.

3 activities in a row..

2006-03-11T05:25:00.000-08:00

the sc ask the most frequent late-comers out n speak to us..n u noe wad..??!! out of 5 ppl, 4 r group6 n tat include me la. haha, no wonder we r in th same group wen we haf the og training coz we haf something in common---late. ;p i'm so lucky lo..i haf grace time coming to the sch coz my hse damn far..haha..luckily, the sc pity me..so gd of her..yeah.i thought she will ask me to withdraw lo..;)

i went nyco after that n haf some briefing..n they dun haf any pract until 29 of march--snergy den camp frm 30march to 1 april. shld i join both db n co....? sian la..think i willl in the end join both lo..but db will surely b my first choice though..hmm..i will b very busy liddat leh..can i cope..????!!!! ;(

after that, rush to haf my lunch den to db sea training le. wow, so many ppl there lo. scary sia. coz normally haf training in the morning den only got ny. den today afternoon got lots of dunno where de n ngee ann poly..saw den chua..haha..he slim down quite alot though.. hmm..wow, his sch team no wonder is the best among all poly..saw them training la..very fast lo..n noisy lo..
weee..the sun very sunny today..lucky got apply sun block... oya..it's gd to haf training this time coz no need run b4 rowing..hehe..;p

hoho

2006-03-09T00:57:00.000-08:00

omg. i late 3 days le. sian la. although i'm late, i reach sch at 7am lo. can u imagine how tired i am wen i travel to sch. haha, anyway i slp all the way lo. tml i won b late.;p

cca bazzar yest..still think the first 1 the best lo. anyway, those ppl hu r in performing arts cca in sec sch mr quek wan us to b back in our old cca lo. sian la...he say he might make it compulsory for us if the cca dun haf enough ppl. sian. den he wan us get gold for syf next year, if we get it he promise us a tour oversea lo. haha. i think i 85% going to join db le. ya. den i was craping wif michelle tat mayb i will get 3 ccas. haha. tat's crazy, i noe. db, co and interact club. haha, den really holistic education lo. can use play hard on me, dunno will i work hard or not leh...sian.

yuan ting, samantha, dina n some others very sad lo. the hod dun allow them to take h2 chem say coz too many ppl choosing this course den not enough resources. they so so so sad la. c le, i oso dunno how to comfort them. sian. only can say i quite lucky lo, thanks to ms tan i manage to get a b3 for chem. whew...

ai zhen very siao la..go ajc den apeal back pjc again. haha..crazy gal... hmm..if she c this think az wanna kill me..haha..coz i craziest. choose such a far sch. haiz....if i ask ms tan to let me borrow a room at her hse, dunno if she will agree or not sia..haha.

so many to catch up.....

workshop

2006-03-04T06:32:00.000-08:00

it's a sat n yet i still wake up as per normal n went to sch. reach sch very early..abt 7.10am. haha..reach sch so early can do wad leh..??!! haha...to shit la..my usual routine liao if i reach sch early...;p den while i shit suddenly i rmb i forget to bring my sponge banana to sch which i promise the others..shit lo. den i kena beat n scolded by them coz we plan to take photos today...cannot blame la..i haf poor memo..;p

the workshop the student councillors set up is still quite fun la..we haf the ice-breaker game den follow by games..think bcoz we r there to b fun n quite comfortable so we do haf fun. noe wad..??!! i am in the same group with lin hong..group6!! haha..so coincidence, right..? haha..during db training, we oso almost the same group den same og den now is same og again..haha.. hmm..the sc keep saying we r not the confirm ogls den in the end we r still the confirm lots. coz if i ever keep out today, i really dun mind coz we need to b in sch on mon by 0630!!!!!!! haha, hope i wont b late for tat day. ya..n hope i will b enthu la..wif little slp..haha..n noe wad, i need to call the og member to inform them abt some things den out of 5 i need to call, 3 r wrong no. ass.

bfore i worry abt getting late for mon, i think i need to slp le..haha..db training at kallang tml n need to b there by 0720. sian la..spore going to haf their local pandan real soon..-.-'' omg, i heard frm yuan ting n she heard frm eric that we need to run 5km tml morning..!! 5km!! 5km!! i will b dead!! i will..haha..i can jog but i cant RUN. siao la..if dun run later kena scold again..pray hard tml no need run or juz rain tml morning..haha..;p but dun rain too much coz i wanna row the boat though arms still ache alot.

life goes go. i haf exciting life ahead of me. yeah! ~happy~;)

break-up

2006-03-02T07:12:00.000-08:00

hipee..finally i am back to single..think many will ask y i dun juz tell him since i wanted long ago..i dunno..i juz dun like to say tat kind of thing la..anyway..i can guang ming zhen da to look at suave guys le..so happy lo..

dun feel sad..extremely calm..not trying to hide my sorrows or wad...feeling a heavy burden have finally drop off..although i agree there was sweetness sometimes wif him, emptiness n bored r still the most frequent words to describe when i wif him. so, whew...;p

seeing every1 so nervous abt the posting sia..i thinking even if i get to my 2nd choice or 1st i will b ok.. ny:not happy coz dunno if i can make it for 2 years there wifout much slp... pj:not happy coz after 4 years around there i still need spend another 2 years there..like pri sch liddat..sian la..anyway, i fine with either choices. juz pls dun let me get any choices frm 3rd n below..haha

1st dat of sch they start lectures already leh..sian la..timetable already out..damn it..haf to mug..?haha..

going to slp le..sian la..thinking i need to spend so much $$ this week..tml going out wif og den sun ct...haiz..

alevel result

2006-03-01T06:50:00.000-08:00

wtf, touch the com den make me need to type every thing again..

anyway, today dismiss very early at 12.15..den went to j8 to eat lunch. den tat lin hong wanna buy a $6 banana..thought banana now in great demand..haha..she den bought it in at the action city..dina, yuanting n me oso got buy..haha..the banana gang...we very dui nian la..play banana wars in the interchange..haha..ppl keep staring at our bananas..so funny sia..oya.oso heard tat banana is a great source of food to dragonboaters. hehe..training..today still ok..end abt 7..reach home 8...tired lo..miss my stupid busstop coz i forget to press bell la..stupid..

numb towards him...but today not approriate to tell him..coz he not very happy abt his result..mayb next month i will say le..if nth improve..ya..

sian

2006-02-28T04:31:00.000-08:00

went to swimming wif him on sat after bb, den caught red handed by stupid jiunn yuan..sian lo..haha..very paiseh la..anyway, we went there oso didnt swim coz damn too crowded den juz soak there for 1 hour or so den go home liao...boring..;)

eve went to ny today..haha..some of my ct think we r twins lo..ah bong bag, same uni, almost the same heights..haha..anyway..hate that stupid ms teo..my ct tutor..so ass la..last time got 1 guy frm my class bring his friend cum den she say juz inform her next time den she won mind..den i bring she so kau pei de..hate her man..anyway, oso heck abt her la..irritating..!!

me n michelle pon pe den go orchard wif eve eat fish n co. wow..so full lo..crazy 1 la..not working liao den i still spend $$ liddat..haha..think only now can..wen sch start wan oso no time le..;p finding excuse actually..

going to get posting on friday sia..sian lo..n the db training is getting tougher each time i go..haiz..make me thinking again to join back..or i juz be a librarian will do lo..more slack ma..c la..haha..going for the ogl training on this sat..yipee..shld b fun..

told kl abt me n him..he tell me to drag lo..dunno leh..watiting for him to make the move anyway..if he didnt..aactually i dun mind coz 1 month oso only meet him twice..doesnt affect my lifestyle oso..ya.wadever.. suddenly i think juz friend wif him doesnt sound so bad afterall. communication is a problem, common topic is another, dunno each other is oso. although i only name 3, i think they r the biggest problem le..sian la..

hmmm..tml alevel result releases..hope yx get as many distinctions! ;) n good luck to others too..

relationship sux

2006-02-23T02:04:00.000-08:00

haiz..been 5days nv tok to him den yest i called him. suddenly, i think we drift. mayb it true that relationship that are far apart is hard to maintain. well..lots of moments of silence inbetween the talks. there are some last time, but this time more. den nth to tok. sian la. he's bored by me, i think. or, mayb i'm too sensitive, we 2 have been very tired. i'm tired by sch n he's tired by the training...or i'm finding excuses now..arghh..

been thinking of this stupid thing since i went to slp last nite. feel a bit suan in the heart but unable to cry out. no tears. or can say heartless? dunno la. any experience gal wan to gif me some advice..? like wad to tok wif him..? he a small part of my life. meet him like 2 in a month..? n my life n his are utterly different. i lead mine n he lead his. no common things. how can b i so insane by agree wif him in the first place.???!! haiz. the problem is i dunno wad is the problem..

c andrea in hospital yest, she look fine le..heard frm her today she will go home liao..she shld b home le ba..nv ask..get well soon leh..andrea..;)

arghhh.........i WAN to cry leh..everything like cope in the chest liddat wenever i think abt it..ass lo..

take 1 step at a time....

2006-02-23T01:32:00.000-08:00

valentine

2006-02-13T02:55:00.000-08:00

i apply for ny as my 1st choice le..haiz..think i quite confirm i get in le..den pj my 2nd choice den follow by cj..actually wanna cj more than pj but my dad n alot ppl say cj bad reputation la..haiz den put 3rd choice instead le..ok now..i dun care le la..anyway already put le..

went to his hse on sat den watch shutters in his room..got his sis at home la..hmm..ya..haha..the details will b for us only..den he send me home by taxi..ya..tat all..;)

haiz..muz study le..sian..cannot pon sch liao...sobs..
haha

sick..

2006-02-08T00:16:00.000-08:00

abit sick..so nv go sch today..coz so tired n hw all haben do..den sian half le..

anyway..tml tml will get result le...haiz so scardly lo...

i now damn bored la...haiz....

so sian la...

happiness

2006-02-04T23:07:00.000-08:00

since i return frm malaysia during cny, i haf been quite confused abt myself. but thinking for sometimes, i think i will stick to only yx for the time being. i started to like him bit by bit n more now... although i i cant get to c him anytime i feel like to, he treat me well. ;)

result might b next week..pray hard guys...!! ;p

late

2006-01-23T03:38:00.000-08:00

whew..went to dragon boat yest..it was......FUN!! hehe..though quite tired leh..

i die le...tml pe in the afternoon den straight follow by the training of dragon boat...bones going to crack..

oya..yest i meet him the first time since we tok on the phone. i was late as usual for abt 30mins but he took me to take my time sia. anyway, initially quite wierd den after breakfast, everything seems or i felt easier.. haiz..but we like meet abt 1 hour plus den i need go for the db training le..;( haha..actually still ok la..coz haf great fun at kallang river..lots of macho guy..;p

anyway...result cuming out real soon lo.. think by tat time den i will consider stop working ba...

hipee

2006-01-17T04:47:00.000-08:00

well, been weeks in nanyang le. do haf some days i'm so regret in choosing ny coz i need to wake up so damn early n catch the stupid bus. anyway, i been trouble for quite a few days already. by wad leh..? haha..i thinking if wen my olevel result r out den i still eligible for ny, den i dunno if i still wanna join leh. my consideration sch r this: sajc, cjc, nyjc, mayb a jc..den if i really score abt 16points den i go pjc lo..near wad..haha den...wad if i decide to choose nyjc...den wad cca shld i choose..???!! shld i join dragon boat or band...???!! haha..i think i most likely will choose dragon boat..i quite like it here..n not bcoz the guys there all look not bad hor..haha..actually partly la..;p

today went for the db orientation, quite alot ppl there. quite fun too..the ppl there r fun..hmmm...1 week got 3 training leh..normally la..den this sun got sea orientation..haha..yeah..i'm going..!! haha..shld b fun.;)

anyway, went back cckss dunno wen, 4get already. miss the teachers sooososo much lo..tok to philips very long..;) n saw cute ah tan coz he change his style leh..bcum more yan dao than ever..;> haha.. but, he look so stress than ever too...;(

argghhh...so tired..

whewwee

2006-01-06T23:20:00.000-08:00

the sentosa trip is fun..! esp wen we play water guns in the rain!! n den haf dinner wif almost all the og.. tat is a enriching trip..haha..in viet digusting is say as king.

yest..haf disco nite..wow..!! tat so pop! every1 is dancing, shaking, jumping..haha..i oso la..no doubts! but ended very early.. so go eat supper at ps...chat chat chat until abt 11 sia..haha

not sure if i wanna work le..sianz..haha..

2006-01-04T04:26:00.000-08:00

haiz..wake up at 5AM!!! n reach home at 6PLUS!! wow..tired sia..eye bags cum out like siao liao..

anyway..i really late for my sch the first day as predicted..haha..i slp at 8 plus yest..shiok lo..slping after i blog this..

orientation is quite fun n interesting la.. first day, got to noe each other n play some ice breaking game. they got damn lots of cheer to shout. all the OGLs r very enthu lo..haha..we very quiet but today can say more noisy la..today play some water games but not at all wet..haha contradicting..??!! ya..they guys n gals look not bad leh..haha.. hmm.learn the mass dance n very funny..;p

very wad lo..i fail my amath den dunno if i can successfully enrolled into H2 math n phy..haha..anyaway..got 2 options n i both oso got put this 2 sub..haha..PRAy i wiLL get in sia..dun wish to waste my 3 mon..n going to try variety of ccas there.ya

erm..actually working today..but cant la..i reach home at 7 plus lo..sian haha..but i cum home wif yx coz he go sch oso so meet lo.. oya..really thanks eve for replacing me..!! haiz..going to ask the boss if i can work weekends..if not i will consider if i will work not..

hehe..tml ny r going to sentosa..! hmm..look forward to it..n hope i will haf great fun there..!! ny..hmm..overall is not bad except dist toO fAR!!

falling asleep...

haf my candy dreamZ..

niteY..

last day

2005-12-31T07:02:00.000-08:00

last day of 2005. juz 1 hour more to go. kinda miss 2005 despite all those disasters happened all around. i miss cckss la. really miss it. the sch, the teachers, the classmates, even the uncles there. i noe! i noe i can visit there at anytime but it isnt the same anymore i there as EX-ccksians. i cant spend most of my time wif 4/9 n friends n beloved teachers. those memorable time spent like national day celebration, teachers' day celebration, late nite remedials on fri wif mr tan lh, n some late remedials wif mr tan wl n many more..n not to forget those days where all of us act as a source of comfort for each other as the days of olevel is coming nearer n nearer..as we noe we r not alone in this battle, everyone is wif us. omg! i really miss those words said by mrs philips. they make me reflect n she oso tok sense to me wen i get overly stubborn. she nv gif up on me despite so much failure i showed her( juz hope the result is a).

sec sch life is stressful wen u stepped into upper sec n i noe life will b even more stressful wen i decided for jc life. i noe i might not b able to meet all those wonderful teachers who guide my ways in my 4 years n help me out. nut due to them, i think i grow. so i will cope wif wadever problems tat came my way.

i fully understand tat there is no meal tat haf no goodbye(a chinese proverbs ba..) friends meet n go even how close they r. it takes 2 hands to make a friendship works. but come on, it will no longer b the same anymore even wen we can meet or wad. new friends will replace the old and slowly b forgotten. as we can no longer appear along the corridor, canteen, outside office together n laugh at our own jokes or even guess correctly wad u're thinking abt. sooner or later mayb we will juz bcum friends who merely say hi n bye wen we meet den walk off.

anyway..gd luck to every1 in the new year 2006!!!!!!! smile always..

bake cookies..!!

2005-12-23T04:55:00.000-08:00

actually goimg vivian hse..but cant la..relatives cuming..dawn though..

bake cookies wif eve..haha..at first very enthu..go shop n save den to ntuc..saw yi hong early in the morning wif her sis..den went to my my hse le..haha..we add the wrong ingredients together at the start..den throw away lo..no choice..den start baking..turn out to b.......very nice la.. haha..a bit too sweet only..eve lo..haha..put so many sugar..(tat wad the book say la..) haha but tat stupid oven took so long to bake..make us sian double le..anyway haf enough cookies..;)

oya..yest go east coast wif az, andrea, chelle, alice, ml, huan qing, yinghua..wanna build a sand "snow man" but fail..so sad..after all the cycling n skating..ohh..my legs..my musceles is so pain n tired..haha..today i rest sia..lazy hor..? i nv go run..haha..very tired leh.. musceles haben recover la..c tml how..hehe

sch opening..

sian sian sian

2005-12-21T05:47:00.000-08:00

hmm..spend sometime rotting at home den yest go running..found out my physical not as gd as last time le..sad sia.. den go badminton wif andrea, az,n sy..play for 1 hour den very tired liao..me so lousy..

x'mas cuming le..sian..haha..gg to bake cookies!! any1 wanna order..?haha..jk hor..

dreams do cum true

2005-12-16T09:38:00.000-08:00

i only thought of dreaming entering nyjc..nv did i thought i can ever go in..i believe the competition there will b stiff ba..but i abit reluctant to enter ny coz of it's distance..haiz..now having headache thinking of the best way going to travel to my future sch for at least 3 mon..hu u ever noe if my olevel will allow me to go ny..if cannot den will consider ijc or pjc ba..den poly..ya..

chelle's bdae..went to seoul garden n eat..haha..coz my diet plan haben start..it has been push backward n backward until i think dun need liao.. haf a very very heavy lunch..n haha..want chelle to treat us 5 ppl includng herself to eat andersen's icecream..

sy leave first follow ny az la..left me n eve to chelle hse..decided to play manjong..which i totally haf no idea how to play..den being "so-called" dragged down to eat steamboat!! omg..eating steamboat twice in a row..!! damn full..think i torturing my little round stomach but some food quite nice..haha..den tat stupid michelle buy cake dun put it in the fridge n make it so disgusting..no choice..juz eat..

haha..continue my manjong..i lose all my fake shillings n own more..so so lucky is fake de..or else..i die..coz i the big loser n eve the big winner..haha..she so damn pro la..i oso not bad..keep make some stupid mistake..haha..

wow..wad a long entry today..now only 2 am plus wad..cant slp for days liao..sian..tml steamboat again..go c them eat..haha..kena isomia..haha

leg suan lo!!

2005-12-09T21:25:00.000-08:00

Thursday: went to haf some lesson..which is wad they said..go there n find out is those charity.. being cheated again..initially say wad orgainise event n do some road shows..wadever de...so follow them ask ppl donate..until my legs hurt so much..den ya..we get selected to do the job so i n eve ok lo..went to taka to fill up forms..hoping tat they will call us..ya..

Yesterday:wake up damn early even earlier than i wake up for sch..den haf some briefinf here n there n teach us the basic requirement for the work..well..i n eve learn b4 le..wen we went for the other tryout..so ya..anyway..the ppl there is friendly n pleasant..so went to tiongbaru to pitch..haha..saw sy's sis n mum..n i oso saw my godbrother(real de..), n zhi sheng..!!which gif me a shock of my life..den i hide frm them la..haha.den walk all the way to chinatown, clark quaye, den to city hall.. i earn abt $40 altogether in which now..my feet still hurt..so told them i dun wan to do le..

haiz..cum to think of it mayb i cant take hardships...? aiya..but i dun like tat kind of jobs lo..(hehe..consoling myself..>.<) going to bb for pract liao..sian..haha..

2005-12-06T11:37:00.000-08:00

went to interview..though i say i going to rot..but the person call me yest so go down cc lo..den turn out to b quite smooth la..haha..finally..got a job le..but still not very sure wad it is abt..

andrea bdae..went to her hse..at first the atmosphere quite wierd la..but a bit later..play a game den turn out fine..alice very ke lian lo..drink dunno how many tubs of water coz she lost..haha..the best part is sy eating bananas, apples, oranges, n a few cups of water..haha..she look like a monkey..;p den cake cut..a few went home..den hehe..haf some gers tok lo..

call him..first time to tok lo..call at abt 1 plus..am..abt going to 3 den finish..haf a nice chat lo...ya..haha..ya..now..i cant slp le..dunno y..going to be dead beat tml..i bet..so waste some time here..

i dunno wad to do..shld i or shld i not..???

andrea bdae

2005-12-06T11:24:00.002-08:00

i dunno wad to do! shld i or shld i not?

andrea bdae

2005-12-06T11:24:00.001-08:00

andrea bdae

2005-12-06T11:24:00.000-08:00

proM

2005-12-04T01:12:00.000-08:00

finally back home..now is 3pm..

went to make my hair which i intially think very wierd..den went to michelle hse to make up n so on la..den sy they all oso arrived liao..

went to the place lo..wow..alot of ppl wear very nice la..quite formal though..but the place really sian la..nth to do de..somemore wear tat stupid heel shoes make my legs so suan..haha the food there very common only la..we keep taking photos only..haha.. quite disappointing..so few teachers go only lo...

after tat went to lau pat sat to eat supper..haha..ai zhen hungry lo..u noe wad later!? we walk to fullerton hotel(i dunno how to spell) den to esplanade..wif heels..! den already 1am liao..! wanna take nite rider nr3 but dun haf lo..so ask ppl for direction..n we 4 get cheated..!! all say tat place got bus den wen we walk to there there dun haf the bus we wan.. worst sstill got 1 uncle say last nite no nite ride bcoz of wad marathon la..so no choice take taxi..n........we saw nr3 on the way wen we take taxi.. sian lo..waste so many $$$..

chelle's hse like chalet lo..coz all her family went to m'ysia..we almost eat half of her tibits..haha...

overall..i utterly broke..but not going to find work liao..decided to rot at home..so next week i staying at home throughout..!! so cant waste $$$$!! hehe..;p

2005-12-02T06:00:00.000-08:00

someone call me for the job..i agree la..c how first la..c i can do it anot..coz i decide to rot at home 1 den..sian..

went to bugis again..finally every1 bought wad they intended to buy..good..nv waste time..haha..

i very sian leh..sch faster open..

2005-12-01T06:28:00.000-08:00

i MIss the annoymous..

trying out work

2005-12-01T05:59:00.000-08:00

went to try out the work coz the person say if only we like den he will hire us..but we left..haha we meet the ppl at 9 plus lo..den follow the person call wad brian de..so strange..ok la..he very friendly..keep showing me n eve magic, jokes, n all kind of stuffs..but mayb i dun like to being fool by him so his toks seen so boring. but eve so quiet den i no choice to laugh.. he damn slack la..somemore the pay only commision de lo..sian..n is door to door sales...so paiseh n so we say we dun like n go..somemore very hungry tat time..haha..dun dare say den hungry lo..den go bugis again..haha

hee..sat prom..dunno if lot of ppl going not..hope i wont b wierd there..;p

so many

2005-11-29T02:12:00.000-08:00

so many to update..

went to nyjc n hoping to get into the sch coz i go apply for LEP..the mrt journey is 45mins den dunno how to go liao..so ask ppl..so go find the stupid bus stop n take me half n hour to find..den pounder whether i shld cross the road not..coz tat lady i ask say muz cross road..but i saw a student dunno frm wad sch waiting for bus so i thought no need cross..tat lady muz b wrong..so wait for 105..how i noe is in the WRONG direction..soooo regret nv seek the lady advice instead...nvm..reach there n found out the total journey is abt 1 hr without including the waiting bus time..sian la..if i really get in..i confirm everyday late de..so suan le ba..sian..

went to m'sia..quite boring coz those places where we shop is soo similar like s'pore de..n only cheaper abit..so johore nth to shop..my grandpa there beta.. sy n st(sy sis) got go..n found out st not very fierce la..haf a gd time wif bk(co de), wh n dl..miss them so much..haha..so..hmm..dun wan quit bb liao..coz i wan to travel wif them so tat the friendship continue..;p

meet eve today..wanna find job de,..in the end end up calling frm the newspaper n get very piss lo..coz at jp there all the ppl say full liao wen their advertisement still paste outside...idiot lo..going to walk in tml..wish me gd luck...heehee..

haben decide wad to wear for prom too..sian..!!!

miss cckss!!

ugly..

2005-11-23T21:00:00.000-08:00

cant go to my intended sch lo...i wanna go nyjc but cant..they 10points den i get a 13 points...n lots of ppl say very far..tell me not to go..orelse i will regret de..really meh...? haiz..now i dunno go where liao.. HeLp..

btw..i dun really like the class tshirt la..somemore so ex..haiz..abit waste $$$ lo..sian double...!!

yipee..finally get to read Harry Potter n Half blood Prince le...!! let c wen can i finish...haha

superstar!!

2005-11-20T22:30:00.000-08:00

think cck ppl are all bcuming crazy le..so many go join campus superstar sia...i thought only a few but came to noe frm these 2 days so MANY lo..

actually plan to join de..but alot of ppl there watching lo..very paiseh sia..n if i accidentally do anything funny den put on the show..OMG..how am i going to face the world..haha..;p so c la..anyway michelle joining sia..go support her tml hor..haha..

go bb early in the morning n found no sheng for me..nvm la..anyway i forget how to play le..so suan le..think i can b audience wen i go malayisa..haha..can go find ah tan n ask him b our tour guide there.. wad do u think..? but think he very busy lo..

really..seriously..i think i will stop going to bb next year..i not up to the standard la..n i won join back co in my future sch so ya..quitting..sorry lo..i really dun think i suit it coz after 4 yr i still haf no feelings towards my instruments..but i will miss those ppl there..hope u all will understand..

anyway..noone wan to employ ppl at the age of 16 leh... any1 got any jobs tat i can do..? 1hr $5..not very high rite..? so sad lo..i call n they ask wad age n wen say 16..they say sorry..all of them the same..;(

went to mos buy dinner for sis(mum at kl) den waiting for my meal.. i happen to c a guy very familar den look up n saw my PRI2 form teacher leh..miss ma..but she already married..n after 8 long yr she still rmb me leh..so touch..!! somemore noe my full name..i bet if i met ah tan he surely won rmb my full name de..i think he will call me wad durian sin or nissin the noodles de lo or dun even rmb de rite..;p..;p haha..i still prefer the miss ma 8 yr ago..more attractive..

sian leh..hols..i prefer sch!!

2005-11-20T21:24:00.000-08:00

This Week's Weekly Lovescopes?for the week of 11/21 - 11/27/05
What to expect this week:Caution is the keyword for relationships this week. Promises made in haste, or expectations raised too high, can create complications that may take weeks to untangle. Control the impulses of your heart with some common sense from your head. Calculating and cuddling usually don't go together, but this seemingly unromantic couple may be just what's needed to stay on track emotionally now.
ARIES (March 20-april 19) Even if you're feeling less sociable than usual now, make sure that you get out this weekend. The Moon enters your House of Partnership on Saturday, opening a connection with someone that might feel platonic at first, but which could warm up with time.
TAURUS (April 20-may 20) Magic can happen late this week, Taurus, as opportunities for pleasure could pop up unexpectedly. A boring event you're attending out of a sense of obligation can be brightened by a sweet encounter showing you that love might appear just about anywhere now.
GEMINI (May 21-june 20) Backing out of a social engagement might not be appreciated by others this weekend, but it's better to be true to yourself than to fake it. Don't put on a smiley face and force yourself through a situation that doesn't feel right, unless you're sure that the payoff is worth it.
CANCER (June 21-july 22) You could be especially affectionate later this week, Cancer. Venus, the planet of love and pleasure, is in the relationship zone of your chart, so being huggy and touchy is more likely than usual. Your warm behavior, though, may be interpreted as more than it really is.
LEO (July 23-august 22) The Sun moves into friendly fire sign Sagittarius this week, brightening up your House of Romance, Fun and Games. It's time to play, Leo, taking risks to show your feelings, even if they are a bit strong for some people. The timid just need to stay away for now.
VIRGO (August 23-september 22)Mercury slips back into Scorpio this weekend, a fine time to clean up unfinished emotional business. You'll need absolute privacy to discuss delicate matters safely. But going out of your way to find a quiet corner for an intense conversation is worth the effort now.
LIBRA (September 23-october 22)Generosity and optimism are two wonderful traits that just might get you in trouble this weekend. Opening your heart or wallet without a clear sense of what you're getting in return could wind up being an expensive proposition. A little self-interest is good insurance now.
SCORPIO (October 23-november 22) Your relationship life is very likely to benefit from the counsel of a wise friend this weekend, Scorpio. Instead of keeping all of your secrets to yourself, this is a good time to get some objective input by listening to another person's ideas about your current situation.
SAGITTARIUS (November 22-december 21) Going out with friends as part of a group can be an ideal way to enjoy your weekend. Reducing the one-to-one dating pressure by having others around allows you to relax and be yourself without worrying if you're laughing too loud or being too open and honest.
CAPRICORN (December 22-january 19)A weird interaction in the middle of the week can leave you a bit confused. Is someone coming on to you? It can be hard to tell. If you really want to know, call this person, IM or send a friendly email inviting him (or her) to meet you for coffee to find out what's up.
AQUARIUS (January 20-february 18)There's nothing wrong with setting logic aside this week, Aquarius. The old truths about love might not work for you any more. This is a time when you can widen your horizons, exploring different ways to connect and, maybe, new people to brighten up your old social life.
PISCES (February 19-march 19)Don't wait for the weekend to kick off your social life. And don't wait for someone else to take the initiative now, Pisces. You can be straightforward in expressing your desires with a smile that can put anyone at ease. You show a gentle strength that works wonders.

FINISHED!!!

2005-11-18T19:50:00.000-08:00

YipEE! finally..all end..

but i dun feel extremely happy too anyway..dun get to c all of u tat often anymore..it so wierd..i miss u all.. although i noe we can call each other out n play, i still think the feelings will not b same anymore n we won b tat close le ba..

ReaLLy..i really muz thanks those hu gif me their words of advice wen i am in dispair..they really gif me support..so i really really think DUN stress up urself n go n relax one day or two wif ur loved ones or even frenz to haf a CRAZY day..orelse might get sick someday..take my advice hor.. haha..can call me tok la..since i no more exam..damn free..;p

eve n yolk ask me to go watch HP today..but my mum not in cant ask her if i can can go watch the midnite show..n they staiying outside until the next day..i dun think my mum allow la..last time i sneak to eve home coz mum not in spore..;p

now..now..should i go for the 3 months...? or should i go find a work...?(n i not going back to icecream store le..i wanna try new things if i really choose going to work..) some say go 3months for experiences..haiz..but i dun wan go pjc leh..
cant go to ny coz my points too high le..sianz..i oso dun wan jj coz ppl say jj deproving leh..so wad to do now..?

now need to wait for months b4 the result cum out..hope will b pleasing de..

....

2005-11-10T20:27:00.000-08:00

actually wanna ask philip qns today but didnt ask coz she go home liao.den suan liao lo..juz ask sy think will do ba..haha..den stay there do math lo..cant really concentrate la.coz got too much liang zai liao..mind u..not those students hor..u all shld noe hu la..juz tat few lo..;p sy cant stand me sia..keep saying me hopless..think u all there will oso say ba..but really leh..they r cutE..haha ;p

den sy wanna go home la..but still raining lo..ask her pei me go borrow umbrella frm lh but she dun wan...make me walk in the rain.. haha..dun dare go ask myself coz i still own him an umbrella sia..haha so no choice..

went to library n read some books on wad motion la..so damn difficult.. my notes at home easier a thousand times lo..got quite a lot dun understand leh..

tml..emath paper2 liao..haiz..i scare leh..if calculator press wrongly..how..? my goodness...!!

1st paper

2005-11-07T21:30:00.000-08:00

my 1st paper today: emath paper1 n ss..

only 1 qns cum out frm the 1st piority tat tang gif us..venice..i thought those spore policies will cum out..which i hate most..but still i study tat la..quite lucky tat i study venice too..dun think will do very well..scribble all the way..hmm..y merger nv cum out....? anyway consider myself quite lucky again..coz at least i study wad cum out..some didnt manage to..

emath 1 can consider quite ok la..coz all the philip paper is so so difficult..anyway juz hope tat paper 2 can be the same standard as paper 1 ba..den mayb distinction can get ba..

eng on wed..

gd luck to everyone...

haiz

2005-11-02T22:45:00.000-08:00

mayb i look as though i already noe everything...

But..i do not!!

i am now in a lost of wad to do...

getting tired...

november chopin

2005-11-01T09:30:00.000-08:00

hee..bought november chopin by Jay le..so happy!! got 1 big big big poster of him..haha..now listening..so nice..love it! haha..recomend every1 to but zhen ban de..!

today deepavali sia..sian lo..nth to do still..still study study..but muz after listen finish the cd first..;p

later gg to sy house to ask her math lo..hu tell me so stupid..no choice..
oya..yest..i was so pissed by tat idiot uncle hu lock the sch..so attitude..so i cursed him till siao..nv like him..think himself so wei da...i puke..for goodness sake he juz a attendant serving the sch...k la..i noe i being mean..but juz dun like him..pardon my rudeness..i intend to use more rude voca de..but thinking sy say i too over liao..orelse...u all can use ur imagination to think wad i will write even if need me to search for my dic liao..

hmm..actually my temper very gd de lo..i can tolerant alot of things..but to ppl i dislike the limit of tolerant is very short..cum to think of it..only a few few ppl i really dun like..5 fingers oso can count finish 1..;l

yest wen i saw philips..she seem to look so tired..strands of white hair appear..or is i nv took time to notice how much she haf put in for us.. i hope to do smth in my result..(d7 for amath sia..) but i dunno if i can..

anyway..life continue to remain boring.....

left less than a week to olevel...

panda eyes!!

2005-10-27T22:12:00.000-07:00

bfore the o could really start, i found i haf a really dark eye bags. now, i noe y teachers always haf such ugly eyes bags le..all bcoz of stupid olevel. doubt if any1 really love examz..

finish both chem n phy pract le..dun ask me anything..coz i will start complaining n start pitying myself abt wad i haf done.. titration..out of range by o.4..wen chow readings is 25.9..y..? Y!!?? so tat bit need a bit of luck izzit..? coz i really think i do all the neccessary things le..nvm abt tat.. hmm..phy pract ar..dunno leh..really dunno..but no confident at all..n my instinct is always rite..so..? no choice le..haha..unless..i can do it 1 more time..k..i laming..;(

i HATE practical..

haf the 1st lesson wif Vp..not bad..haha..ya..not bad..actually quite gd leh. or i finally use my 100% to listen wad is teacing in chem..hope i can catch up.. coz she very patient sia..haha..coz i so troublesome n she nv irritated by me..

hey..eve..i dun agree wif ur blog saying love is beautiful...dun agree... love is only beautiful in tv drama show..not in real life..;p do those romantic things really happen in reality....?

2005-10-18T19:41:00.000-07:00

hmm..mock going to end soon..

cant really understand y i can do so much beta in mock for amath than in prelim..mayb all is fated..but i juz dun like being control..
saw ms sim n ask us y our chem so lousy..she say her heart stop wen she saw the result..haiz..i oso dunno how to say juz keep smiling..den sy they all left me n chelle to handle..sian..haha

very boring now..haiz..

haiz la..

2005-10-16T22:04:00.000-07:00

he ask me whether i still haf feelings for him after 1 year.. although we still keep in contact after we break la, i scare le.. he nv noe how much tears i haf cried for him..i noe i stupid..but i dunno at tat point of time..only wen i really think through..i haf a hard time forgetting him..and now..i dun think i will wan him back..
"once bitten, twice shy"
i dun believe in such things le..but instead i told him tat if he seious den ask me after o level coz i cant think of such things now..juz cant bear to say no to him straight..haiz..but will eventually..coz u break my heart into pieces..n there r scar no matter how hard i try to paste them back..

graduation assembly

2005-10-14T19:30:00.000-07:00

today mark the end le..

shed a few drops of tears..quite meaningful..except for going up the stage to get tat stupid appreciation award for service..so embarrassed lo..keep laughing..very stupid la..

all those words said there..hope tat i can do some actions to fufill them instead of juz the toking.. hmm..confident! tat wad ms sim tell us to be..but cant leh..juz feel i not there yet..wen will i..? i dunno..

2005-10-14T18:50:00.000-07:00

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You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.
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Your Superhero Profile

Your Superhero Name is The Moon Specter
Your Superpower is Accessorizing
Your Weakness is Booty
Your Weapon is Your Stellar Sling
Your Mode of Transportation is Seahorse

What's" your Superhero Name?

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.

They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.

It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.

They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

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